“Crud.”
It was the word that summed up how I felt about today’s weigh-in. Actually, one other word directed at myself:
“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!”
I let my guard down. I rewarded myself for having done so well. I let things through my filter that I had not these last few months.
Was it the meal at Olive Garden (including dessert)? What about lasagna and wine and ice cream and cookies at my brother-in-law’s house? Was it actually getting the burrito instead of the burrito bowl at Chipotle yesterday?
No, it was all of the above plus a few other things.
It most certainly was not skimping on workouts. Amy and I did go Wednesday and Thursday morning for workouts. Friday I got to work later than I planned (thank you, dead van battery), but I still went and jogged for 36 minutes (personal longest time). We both went yesterday and today as well. I even went for a 30 min walk today at lunch.
No, it was the food. I just blew the last 3 weeks of losses in one week of indulgences.
Not this coming week. Indulgences are on hold until I reach my goal of 50 pounds (even though it most likely will be after summer starts). I will not let the deadline affect this decision. I will push myself to reach it (but I won’t do anything stupid like fasting for the coming week to make that 50 pounds by next weigh-in).
I’m gonna fight hard though. This week was my indulgence and I won’t give in until I beat myself at my own game. I can obviously do it. I’m gonna do it.
Starting weight: 319.0 lb
Previous weight: 272.2 lb
Current weight: 274.6 lb
Current loss/gain: -2.4 lb
Total loss/gain: -44.4 lb
Cross-posted to FatBloggers.net
June 21st, 2008 at 6:12 pm
“Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!”
I thought that only women weight loss bloggers beat themselves up like this!
Best wishes,
Sharon